Targeted Individual Anthem #24

Why Do TIs Version B
by John Jenkins

We're floating
A dirigible.
And we're on
Our way

Targeted Individuals.
And we
Want
Our pay

Royalties and
Residuals
For the
Broadcasting

This nation's
Indivisible
We own
Everything

We're toing
To the city hall
Every TI
Day

We're fighting
For the principle
Not the interest
Today

Some of us
Take welfare
But we work
All Day

Just give
Us time to prepare
We'll be off
In space

Chorus 1 (2X)

Why do TI's
Live under
The city
Lights?

What do
They eat?
The best pizza
With cheese and fries!

What do
They do?
Try to fight these
Technological crimes

Holy TI's

Verse 2

We're working
In your factories,
And we're
Driving your trucks.

We're taking out
Your batteries
And you're out
Of  luck.

We're thanking
The Academy
For a job
Well done

Hey why are
You still after me?
Now it's
Gonna be one.

Surviving on welfare,
It Ain't easy.
We've got a free healthcare,
And it's queasy

The end is
Near, you know that.
And as soon
As we get home

We're gonna
Build a nation
That our children
Will be from.

Chorus (2X)

Chorus 2

Why do TIs
Live in
Rural
Appalachian time?

What do
They eat?
Eat pickles with
Beans, refried!

How do they know
That their justice
Will come
In time?

Why do TIs

Why do TIs
Live in
Africa and
Asia too?

What do
They eat?
Eat Cassava
And Crab Rangoon!

What do
They know?
Do what ever
You want to do

Holy TIs

Why do TIs
Live in England,
France and
Switzerland too?

What do
They eat?
Eat Swiss Chocolate, Weiner Snitzel
With Bleu

How do
They know
Just when and where
And what we should do?

Why do TIs

Targeted Individual Anthen #23

Why Do TIs Version A
by John Jenkins

We're floating
A dirigible.
And we're on
Our way

Targeted Individuals.
And we
Want
Our pay

Royalties and
Residuals
For the
Broadcasting

This nation's
Indivisible
We own
Everything

We're toing
To the city hall
Every TI
Day

We're fighting
For the principle
Not the interest
Today

Some of us
Take welfare
But we work
All Day

Just give
Us time to prepare
We'll be off
In space

Chorus 1 (2X)

Why do TI's
Live under
The bridge
At night?

What do
They eat?
Inflatable
Pizza pie!

What do
They want?
Residual Payments,
High

Why do TI's

Verse 2

We're working
In your factories,
And we're
Driving your trucks.

We're taking out
Your batteries
And you're out
Of  luck.

We're thanking
The Academy
For a job
Well done

Hey why are
You still after me?
Now it's
Gonna be one.

Surviving on welfare,
It Ain't easy.
We've got a free healthcare,
And it's queasy

The end is
Near, you know that.
And as soon
As we get home

We're gonna
Build a nation
That our children
Will be from.

Chorus (2X)

Chorus 2

Why do TIs
Live under
A pizza
Box?

What do
They eat?
Eat Burgers
With Cheese and fries!

What will
We go
When America
Up and dies

We're still TIs

Why do TIs
Eat paper
And cheese
At night?

Where do
They live?
Liver wherever
The people fight

What will
They make?
When America
Dies of spite

Holy TIs

Atheist Christian Song #4

Chorus 2X

If really say you want
God's help

Pray

If you really, really
Want God's help

Stay

If you're ready
For the word

Read

If you've really
Got the vision

See

Verse 1

I live near
The smoke stacks
The sun don't
Come around here

I never took
My love back

Hear

My life is
All but done
I never told
Anyone

But it
Still caught up to me
Now there's no
One else for me to be

Chorus 2X

I come from
The projects
And the private
School was next

I never did
My home work
Life was always
So complex

And now I'm
Just living life
Never dealt
The pain and strife

Never met
The president
I guess it
Wasn't heaven-sent

Chorus 3X

Ending

If you understand these words

Oh

Then you should hold out your hands

Yeah

And if you got your feelings hurt

No

Well then it's all for the best

But if you can't see these words

No

Then it's all over now

Yeah, Yeah

If you're not willing to work

No

Then it doesn't matter how

YEAH!

End/Fade

It just never
Occured to me

No

That I would be
Super free

Yeah

Everybody knew that

Yeah

I wouldn't be coming back
Yeah

Atheist Christian Song #3

Lord, Lord
by John Jenkins

Verse

Oh Lord
Help me

Please
Unshelf me

I'm not
Just acting

I need
Your backing

Oh Lord
Please help me

Can you hear
Me yelping?

Every day
It's hurting

Quite
Disconcerting

Chorus 1

Lord, Lord
Lord of my life

Better than what
I can see with my eyes

Lord, Lord
What does it take?

I can't express
What a difference it makes.

Lord, Lord
Lord of my eyes

Better than what
I can do in my life

Lord, Lord
What should I make

You know I will do
Whatever it takes

Verse 2

Lord
Help me

Lord
Develop me

I stopped
Sinning

Lord
I'm winning

Lord
I'm falling

Hear
Me Calling

In
Heaven

Lord's
Heaven

Chorus 2X

Lord, Lord 8X

Targeted Individual Anthem #22

Terraform
by John Jenkins

Verse 1

They say I
Murdered
My own
Auntie

How would I know?

They say I
Killed a
Bus full of
Children

Now, does it show?

My heart is
Beating
faster Than
ever

I cannot sleep

When will I
Make it
Up to
Heaven

This feeling's sweet.

Chorus

If you want
Your life to change
You've gotta stop
Murdering

If you want
Your new life to come
You've got to
Keep your heart as one

If you don't
Realize
You're gonna get
Special surprise

If you look
With your eyes
You'll see what
Others choose to despise

Verse 2

The police
Have got me
Under
Surveillance

I see

And I'm
Starting to lose
All of
My patience

In me

The police
Don't want
Me to have
My documents

What a shame

Don't they know
That I come
From the
Projects

To this day

Chorus 2X

Verse 3

They say I
Murdered Mr.
Lyndon
Johnson

And he died

They say I
Killed a
Psyciatric
Doctor

What a surprise

They say I
Killed my
brother
And sister

Realize

Now tell me
Can I
Get a
Witness?

To these lies

Chorus 2X

Verse 4

They say I
Killed The
Nation of
America

House on the hill

They say It
Made me
Rich and
Famous

Paid the bill

But what did
They write
On my
Epitaph?

These Eyes

They said
Only I
Would write
The epitaph

Characterize

Atheist Christian Song #2

The Fool
by John Jenkins

Chorus 1

The fool hath
Said in his heart
There is
No God

No, no

The fool hath
Said in his heart
There is
No God

The fool hath
Said in his heart
There is no
God

No, No

The lord is
King of all days
He reigns
Forever

And when his
Kingdom returns
We'll be
Together

Will his light
Shine on me?
I wonder
Whether

Who he
Wants me to be
I'll be
Forever

Chorus

It's better in
A corner of a roof
Than in
A wide house

And if
You're looking for proof
He'll be
Your lighthouse

When everything's
Said and It's done
It's all
Exploding

To God, my
Love and command,
I'll be
Devoting

Chorus

Ending

He came down
To mortal man
There is
No God

No, No

And he was
Punished for our iniquities
There is
No God

He brought
His Kingdom to us
There is
No God

Then he said
It is enough
There is
No God

Chorus/Fade

Atheist Christian Song #1

Jesus!
by John Jenkins

Chorus 2X

Jesus!

He is waiting
For us

To walk through the door
Of life

And live forevermore
In his sight

Verse 1

So don't be scared
For he is the God of righteousness

And don't be afraid
For you never will be left

Chorus 2X

Verse 2

So don't be mad
He shed his blood to make you glad

See what you've had
And then you never will be bad

Don't fall behind
Eternal peace, then, you will find

Don't go back home
Because that's not where you are from

Chorus 2X

Verse 3

Don't walk alone
That's not the path that you've been shown

Don't go back home
Because that's not where you are from

If you want love
Take care of every little dove

If you want to live
Make sure you give, and give, and give

Corus 3X

Targeted Individual Anthem #21

Why, TI
by John Jenkins

Chorus 2X

Why, TI?
Would you
Rather have
Your mother
die?

Then you'll
never
Get to
reapply

All you
know into
The future
lie

Why, TI?
Would you
Rather have
Your father
Die.

We'll be
Making you
To
Realize

That your
House is
Full of
Covert spies

Every day

I wake up
To see
Reality
Fade

Getting hard
To call
A spade
Aspade

The things
From which
Your heart
Is made

Trade Again

In the
Time it
Takes to
Fail and win

The told
Me I
Was crazy
Day by day

Now I
Got to show
The play
By play

Chorus 2X

Storms and rain

Will you
Never feel
Your brother's
Pain?

This heart
In hell
Weill leave
A stain

Now it's
Time for
You to
Entertain

Pain away

How will I
Ever take
The pain
Away?

So they
All come to
Complain
To me

But I Know
What I
Would Fain
Today

Chorus 3X

Targeted Individual Anthem #20

Meet Me
by John Jenkins

Verse 1

I could've married
Your daughter
I could've led your firm

Now they say I'm
A martyr
And they say I'm
Infirm

They say life
Isn't easy
They it's
Really complex

If my life
Doesn't please me
Get me out of
This mess

Chorus 2X

Do you want to meet me?

Do you want to greet me?

Why don't you hold me?

Forget whatever you told me

Do you want to meet me?

I see what you showed me

If it doesn't please me

I'll remember what you showed me

Verse 2

Now I'll never pay taxes
I'll never do a term
I'll know the maxes
And I'll never sell Sherm

They say life
Isn't easy
Say one day
I should fly

If my life
Doesn't please me
Then it means I
Ain't trying

If my life
Doesn't please me
Then it means I
Ain't trying

Chorus 2X

I could've been
A doctor
I could've been
A nurse

The next
Bob Proctor
Tell my life
That it hurts

I've been given
a heart
I've got no
Time to play

They say I got
A bad start
I think it
Every day

Corus 3X

Targeted Individual Anthem #19

Succession
by John Jenkins

Verse 1

Got a problem

A gardener's
Got a garden

Hard as words
And getting harder

You won't know
Who's a martyr

Now, tell me what's wrong
With your starter

Got a problem

Knowledge grows
Till I solve it

Nobody knows
Who's involved in it

Nobody knows
Who's involved in it

Chorus 1

In the eyes of this world
We're the only problem

We need Succession

Please

We need Succession

Yeah

Verse 2

Got a garden?

Plant your seeds
From your father

Getting dreams
Is getting harder

Getting creamed
Is a wild thing

Got a walk-in
Closet full of skeletons

They tell me the fools
Were my relatives

Now I'm good
But that's irrelevant

The Permanent
Leviathan

Chorus 2

In the eyes of this world
We'll never be lonely again

We need Succession

Please

We need Succession

What I say?

Targeted Individual Anthem #18

Four-Leaf Clover
by John Jenkins

Verse 1

You taught me how to survive
You taught me how to say thanks
You're the reason I'm alive
Now I'm going to the bank

You taught me life wasn't easy
And I never ask why
And if my life doesn't please me
Then it means I'm not trying

Everybody in my fam'ly
Thinks I'm the worst man alive
They overlook my troubles
Like when I almost died

Everybody at the station
Saw me as a piece of meat
Live in my generation
Know the feeling of defeat

Bridge

But every day
I can't make my mind up
Where I'm going next

In every way
I won't be composed of
The TI complex

Chorus 2X

You
You helped me

Only you
Developed me

Deep in my life
I knew it was over

And now I've got
My four-leaf clover

Verse 2

I never held a trophy
Never made it to the top
Never thought I would survive
Never thought it would stop

But the more that I learned it
The more that it showed
It just couldn't be earned
It only had to be showed

Nobody ever told me
That it couldn't be expunged
They'll never wipe the tears away
And I'll never be one

Bridge 3x

Chorus 4x

Targeted Individual Anthem #17

Kickin In The Wind
by John Jenkins

Chorus 2X

I'm kickin' in the wind

Trippin' 'cause I'll
Never, ever have
To fight again

Then I'll tell my
People that we're
Ready for the win

And they reply
That they won't die
Until we reach the end

On the day that we win

I'm kickin' in the win

Verse 1

Whoever thought a life
Could change so much
Inside a year?

And those I gave my
Life to never shed
A single tear

I've been waiting
For the answer for
My prayers to appear

And now that it is here

Chorus 2X

Verse 2

I've got a million
Dollars hidden
Somewhere in the sky

I told the truth
And won. They lost because
They told a lie

So many institutions
Out there for me
To apply

And I still haven't died

I'm Kickin in the wind

My Second Album

I think I will call my second album "Evidence-Based" or maybe "Thank You." It reflects my new thinking on the subject of gangstalking.

Targeted Individual Anthem #16

Evidence-Based
by John Jenkins

Verse 1

I don't want your
Emotional distraction

I don't need your
Destructive contraption

I lost everything
Now I'm all action

I don't need your
Social impaction

You can run but they're
Still going to find you

You'll have fun but the
Enemy's inside you

You may die thinking you're
Better than someone

But it's a lie. You're
Never alone, hon

Chorus

We're the first new race of the century

And we're evidence-based

We're evidence based

Verse 2

Tell my ma
That I've gone into hiding

Tell my pa
There will be no confiding

You can see
That emotions are rising

You can be
If you keep on providing

You are so full
Of love and caring

What I'll do is
Make songs for the age

What it takes
Is the holiness of someone

It will brake you if
You don't become one

Chorus 2

We gave everything we were
And everything we'll be

And we've evidence-based

Targeted Individual Anthem #15

I Thank You
by John Jenkins

Chorus

I thank you
And it doesn't make sense

I thank you
I don't need a defense

I thank you
And it doesn't even hurt

I thank you
And I'll never miss work

Verse 1

I thank you

In the darkness of my past
You found me

Couldn't be who you told
Me to be

And never thought that I would
Have Gratitude

But there's nothing else for
Me to do

Gangstalking was the end
Of my life

Now I live at the edge
Of a knife

But I'll never forget
What you said

Get a job or get out
As I bled

Chorus 2X

Verse 2

You know me more than even
My own mom

It's been a decade more since
They've been gone

But I have no pity
For them

They made their bed and now
They have to spend.

And my brother who stole
My keys

He gave it to those
abusing me

I will never forget
what he's done

And that he is not the
powerful one

Chorus 2X

Verse 3

I thank you

I incorporated
Early this year

And I never, ever
Tried a beer

But my destiny is
In my hands

All I have to do is
Make a plan

And in a few years
When I die

There will be things left for
Me to try

And my life was not
Lived in vain

I have peace and love
I can't explain

Chorus  2X

Verse 4

I love you
And it doesn't make sense

I love you
I don't need no defense

We've been kept apart
Since we were born

But now we're so close
Just a little bit more

I love you
More than I can say

I make love
Each and every day

I go swimming
Whenever it's warm

I give all
that I have and more

Chorus 4X

Good Omen

I don't know. It's hard to describe. I think that I'm headed in the right direction, but I haven't "hit the pinnacles I plan to reach." It gets harder and harder every day to justify what's happened to me.

Where To Go From Here?

I've already finished my first album. Got the first two tracks to my second. Where do I go from here? How do I continue the success that I have achieved thus far? I don't know.

Targeted Individual Anthem #14

Nice Life
by John Jenkins

Verse 1

Something is
happening
and it's
something big

From figs
of thistles
to thistles
of figs.

My gangstalkers
stopped washing
over me
Now isn't that nice?

My gangstalkers
stopped trying to
injure me
I paid the price.

Bridge 1 2x

My mother called me
and said
Boy I'm sorry I left you

My father called me
and said
I'm sorry that I beat you

Chorus 2x

Your freedom is waiting
for you
You don't have to like what
you've been going through

Your ife never should've been
so hurtful and hard
You can't understand it 'cause
You are just so scarred

Verse 2

Something is
happening
and it's
something that's true

I do whatever
I want now
And I don't
fear abuse.

My gangstalkers
stopped washing
over me
Now isn't that grand?

My gangstalkers
stopped washing
over me
I'm as happy as I can be.

Bridge 2 4x

My brother called me on the phone
He said I shouldn't be alone.

My sister called me again.
Apologized for what she did.

Chorus 2x

Targeted Individual Anthem #13

Thank You
by John Jenkins

Chorus 2x

Thank you
ganstalkers
You saved
my life

If you hadn't
found me
I would
have died.

Before this
all started
I've lived
a lie.

Now that
I've departed
I live
my life

Verse

It's better just
being alone
than being
hit.

It's better
eating Campbell's
soup than
eating it.

It's better
playing videogames
Than being
on trial.

It's better
losing megabytes
then losing
your life.

Chorus 2x

It's better
taking welfare
Than taking
fire

It's better
than feeling like
you're on
The Wire.

It's better
in Chicago
than in
The Pen.

It's better
on your own road
Then facing
the end

Chorus 4x

Oh Tupac Wherefore Art Thou Music?

The reason why I'm so much in a hurry to release all of my songs is because of my favorite musician, Tupac. When he died, he had 300 unreleased songs. And some of these songs were better than rappers' entire CAREERS. If he had released everything, he would've been the first Hip Hop billionaire, not Jay Z. That's why I release everything. The more the better.

Finished First Album!

I don't know what it was. I was sleeping one day in April or May, and I just got up and started writing songs. I wrote 5 songs in 24 hours. And then soon I was at ten. Now I've got an entire album. Crazy Sexy Cool, the album which is my all-time favorite, has sixteen tracks, but FOUR of them are interludes. So, I would say that I should maybe have four interludes on my album. I've got some ideas.

But this was an amazing experience. To have the ability. I've actually tried to make an album before. I ways gave up after a few songs. Perhaps, this time was different because I was actually STUDYING words, instead of thinking that I knew it all. I don't know what it was. Maybe it's because this is something that I actually know. Something that I have intimate knowledge on, and I'm not just trying to fake coolness like with my previous albums (I was trying to be a Gangsta Rapper before. I didn't work out).

I want to write a hundred TI songs.

Targeted Individual Anthem #12

Question Time
by John Jenkins

Gloria,
Let me ask you a question, now

Why didn't you write your masterpiece?

I wrote my first novel
Eight years after I became a target

And I've been writing ever since

Michael Barden,
How did you keep your heart from hardening?

How'd you forgive your enemies?

Through no effort of my own,
I avoided prison entirely.

And now I'm getting back on my feet.

Tina Plakinger,
Tell me how it happened to her

Why didn't you give up then?

I'm stayin' in Chicago now
There's quite a lot of rules to follow, now

I keep asking myself when

I never, ever thought I'd die with
a big old thorn up in my eye.

And that the people around me
Wouldn't see the truth.

But then I realize,
That my eyes were on the prize.

That's how I got through
This abuse.

Repeat

Targeted Individual Anthem #11

Sweet Success
by John Jenkins

Verse 1

Make success a
Foregone conclusion

Don't fall prey to
The TI delusion

Even if you're in
An institution

Keep looking for
Your rockin' solution

Make success a
Foregone conclusion

And rid your life of
Strife and confusion

Keep working through your
Life's destitution.

And then you will
Find your solution.

Instrumental

Verse 2

An equal life was
Not meant for caring

Your days of strife were
Not meant for sparing

You're caring when you
Should just be daring

And even though it's
Too hard for sharing

Your love is hard and
There's no comparing

Your mind just wasn't
Built for this snaring

I can't believe that you
Keep comparing

And even though your
Heart is despairing

Instrumental

Verse 3

Our families are not
Worth comparing

Our coffin, it is
Not worth preparing

So tell me, why are
You still despairing

What's this dogma that
You seem to be marrying

If you go home, you
Will go to prison

They'll cut your hair and
Wipe out your vision

You'll the miss the sun
And then miss your mission

And all because it
Could not be given.

Instrumental

Targeted Individual Anthem #10

Your Life Is A TI Song
by John Jenkins

Verse 1

Your mother done left you.
You father done checked you.

Wouldn't it be nice.
If you could wrap your heart around.

Your brother done baited you.
Your sister done hated you.

Wouldn't it be nice,
If you could hear that still small sound.

Bridge

Serious

Broke down
but never broken.

Serious

Greater truth
was never spoken.

Serious

And all your
enemies are choking

Serious

Chorus

If you can feel it
then you can increase your mileage,
as  much as the night is long.

Your heart is a number.
Why don't you dial it?
It makes the whole world wrong.

No matter what you do,
they'll split you in two,
In the streets that you're among.

You know, life isn't easy
and it's full of heartache.

Your life is a TI song.

Verse 2

Your baby done left you.
Stood there and undressed you.

Wouldn't be nice,
If you could stand upon this ground?

Your son bereft you.
Your daughter won't accept you.

Wouldn't it be nice,
if you knew what this was all about?

Bridge

Chorus 2

Chorus

If you can feel it
then you can increase your mileage,
as  much as the night is long.

Your heart is a number.
Why don't you dial it?
It makes the whole world wrong.

No matter what you do,
they'll split you in two,
In the streets that you're among.

You'll never get them back
and you were meant for heartache.

Your life is a TI song.

Your life is a TI song.

Your life is a TI song.

Targeted Individual Anthem #9

Grand
By John Jenkins

Chorus 1

Dead Eyes.
Though they never will believe us.

Dead Lives.
They will never come between us.

Dead Skies.
And the skies are not beneath us.

We can make this grand.

Dead Eyes.
And our song, it is forever.

Dead Lives.
We will always be together.

Dead Skies.
And it doesn't matter whether
we convince them or not.

Chorus 2X

My heart's whole.

And they told me it was over.

But they lied.

Now I'm fighting just like before.

Dead Eyes.
Now, my mother was in fashion.

Dead Lives.
Being single was a passion.

Dead Skies.
Now I know that she was acting.

She didn't know what was happening.

Dead Eyes.
And they never said "What's happenin'?"

Dead Lives.
And they hated with a passion.

Dead Skies
And their love was an illusion.

They will never know me.

Chorus 2X

Ending

Dead Eyes. Dead Lives. Dead Skies. 3X

Targeted Individual Anthem #8

Stay Back
by John Jenkins

Verse 1

I can't take these
drugs forever.

I want to be free.

And I can't raise my
family from prison.

I need to be me.

The police think
I'm highly suspicious.

But they can never define

What makes me
so right and delicious

To these invisible crimes.

Chorus

Stay back.

You'll be living with the trauma.

Way back.

Flourished under Obama.

Reach out.

When they call you a liar.

Lay back.

Verse 2

If you want to
see your family,

Stick a beam in your eye.

And if you want to
avoid damage.

Well, then you'll have to die.

No, you cannot have
it both ways.

Be free or be poor.

The path is riddled
with their refuse.

It's an open door.

Chorus 2

Stay back.

Out of the way of your trauma.

Way back.

To avoid all this drama.

Reach out.
Though there will be no Karma.

Lay back.

The police think
I'm highly suspicious.

But they can never be sure.

Following their
written prescriptions.

Your failure is ensured.

Want to die with feet
in the promised land.

Well then, you'll have to fly.

Don't you say the
Bible predicts this.

'Cause then you may just be right.

Chorus 3

Stay back.

To be free of all the drama.

Way back.

And to be rid of all your problems.

Reach out.

To the sky, from whence your help comes.

Lay back.

Lay back 4x

Targeted Individual Anthem #7

Go On Tour
by John Jenkins

Verse 1

Go on tour,
Go on tour,
Young TI.

To be sure
You'll endure
Whatever Passes by.

Though the law,
and your boss,
say you're insane.

And your family
just can't get
inside your brain.

Through the view
of your youth,
you shall survive.

Though your mother
told you
fifteen thousand times.

Boy you better,
never, ever,
rock the boat.

Bridge

Did you ever even think that you would
live long enough to make the tour?

Verse 2

There's a house
 just outside
 of your pain

No matter how,
you will succeed,
once again.

It just might
be your job
to fall in love.

Buy your brand new
baby a leather
baseball glove.

When your tour
brings you right
through this old town.

And your song,
of being wrong,
rocks the house down.

Remember
the day you were
targeted.

Bridge

Did you ever even think that you would
live long enough to make the tour?

Chorus

Make the tour.
You will endure,
And through your heart's song,
We will ensure.

And though your heart's blue,
If you only want to,
If your heart's fond,
Will you be pure?

Be Pure

Your father always told you,
To always stay true.
But then he lied to you.

Sold you for a few Netflix shows.

Though it hurt you,
you always came through.
Do what you want to.

What does your psychiatrist know?

And I never even thought that I'd
survive long enough to make the tour.

They always told me to,
But they never wanted me to,
Really endure.

And it gets so easy
in this world that
we abjure.

 And I never even thought that I'd
survive long enough to make the tour.

Chorus 2

Make the tour,
Though you're not sure.
Bring your life back.
Bring your queens jewels.

If your love's pure,
they can never hurt you.
They can't have that.
Do you.

Do you.

Targeted Individual Anthem #6

Demons
By John Jenkins

Verse 1

Stayin' out
of prison
is the business
of winnin'

And this feelin'
got me illin',
like I'm killin'
with ceilings

I told God
that the road
that I chose
was hard.

Now I'm lauded.
Never thought
I'd see the
Demons departed.

Yo

Chorus 2X

I'm so stressed
with this test.
Why am I vexed?

I was the best,
then I was hexed.
Play Hexen less.

Gotta stay cool,
stay true to me.
Barracuda, be.

My flare
Will make others
To see.

Verse 2

Whatever test
I'm doing next,
and every day,
I'm in the fray.

I never
know quite
what a brother
might say.

I went to college,
but I was starving.
Then it was Heartland,
before this heartland.

I swear I
never thought
I'd see myself
There

Chorus 2X

Verse 3

In the beginning,
life was hard.
And some of us ain't winning
'cause we're begging and borrowing.

Never paid back nat.
If you want to be free,
to cruise the seas,
just take the game from me.

Like Harry Potter,
zoomin' on my push broom.

Like Vince Carter
Doin' my Doctor Dash Doom.

Ain't seen my replay
since six weeks ago.

Now I'm looking at
nothing but dough.

Chorus 2X

Trump Troubles

I still don't regret voting for Trump. He may very well end up being evicted (not to mention incarcerated) but I'm glad that this happened at this time. There are endless ways to succeed, if you just apply yourself.

200 Blog Posts In A Year?

My goal was to have 200 for the year, spread across all of my blogs. What I've learned is that achieving your goals is the hardest thing that you will ever do. It takes so much effort and time. But it wouldn't be worth it if it were easy. You wouldn't have chosen the goals that you chose if it were easy. Nobody does that. So be encouraged.

Enigmatic

One time this lady told me: "Everything you do is perfect." I didn't understand what she really meant. I may never understand.

One Viewer

When I first saw my one view for my songs, I thought, that was my view. I supplied that. But now my next two posts have a view each, and I didn't view those. So, it appears that I have One Viewer, somewhere in the world, who enjoyed my content. Hello mine one viewer.

Live Just Keeps Getting Better

Even my gangstalking is going away. Life is always getting better. I've got so much good food to eat that I can't even eat as much anymore. I'm actually skipping meals now! I have an apartment that I never could've been able to afford under normal circumstances. This is the best time to be alive.

Bout The Songs

I don't know what happened. A few days ago I just hauled off and started writing songs. It came to me so easily then. I hope there are more to come. The first and the last are my favorites. The ones in the middle may prove to be a bit too short. I don't know. Who knows where this will lead.

Targeted Individual Anthem # 5

Shout!
By John Jenkins

(Verse 1)

Love
For my Targeted Individuals.

Love
Even though we don't get residuals.

Trust
That this life makes you who you knew you were.

Lust
Not the worst thing that they do to hurt.

I
Was the first one with an Associate's

Now
I go only with my associates.

Life
doesn't leave you without a way to dream.

Why
Do you ask for what has never been seen?

(Chorus - 2X)

Shout
All my Targeted Individuals.

Shout
'Cause they always knew just who you were.

Shout
That you'll never be in chains again.

Shout
That you won't let your life end in a den.

(Verse 2)

Why
Is the world still blaming those who mourn?

Why
Are we slaves as soon as we are born?

Why
Couldn't they just tell the truth and fly?

Why
Must I conquer Egypt before I die?

When
Is the end coming for those who lie?

When
Will a future life come for me to try?

Who
Are the saints who we have come to trust.

Who
Is the man who did all this to us?

(Chorus 2X)

Targeted Individual Anthem # 4

Taurin Land
by John Jenkins

(Verse 1)
Every day
In Taurin land.
Brothers pray,
And Sisters stand.

Every day
Through snow and storm
We are grateful
We were born.

When we die,
What will they say?
It's all lies.
Walk away.

When we die,
What does it mean?
Don't you cry.
Live your dreams.

(Phrase1)

Live your dreams.

(Instrumental)

(Verse 2)

I love you,
We are the same.
No one cares,
No one to blame.

I love you
And as we fly;
I'll be true
Until I die.

Where will we go
When it is done?
They may know.
We'll still have fun.

Where will we go
When it gets cold?
Play in snow.
Be strong and bold.

(Phrase 2)

Strong and bold.

(Instrumental)

(Verse 3)

When I was young,
My mother said.
You're not hung;
It's okay.

But as soon
As I messed up,
That was it.
No more love.

(Phrase 3)

Trauma

(Instrumental)

(Ending)

Every day
In Taurin land.
Brothers pray
And Sisters stand.

Every day,
It's all the same.
Be we take
To war again.

Targeted Individual Anthem # 3

Why Me?
by John Jenkins

(Verse 1)

I could have had it all.
But I
Thought it wasn't worth my heart.

I could've called you crazy.
But my
Palpitations told me "maybe."

I could've got my de-gree.
But I
Thought it wasn't really me.

I could've lived with my mom.
But I
Hate to wear out my welcome.

(Bridge 1)

Staying out of prison.
Is a full-time job with full- time pay.
You'll know that you're winning.
If you can write a song and sing it, on your way.

(Verse 2)

I could've beat the game.
But sittin'
On my butt is getting lame.

I could've argued with him.
But he
Lost his family just like me.

I don't have much to declare.
But I
Made history with just my hair.

I'm sober and I'm free.
But I
Need the courage to be me.

(Bridge 2 - 2X)

Respect for women,
Is the only way to stay alive.
All of us are different.
The rules of justice still apply.

(Chorus 1 - 4X)

I say: why, why why,
Why, why, why, why,

Why me?

(Ending 1)

Why me?

Why not?

Targeded Individual Anthem # 2

Get Up, Get Up, Get Up
by John Jenkins

(Verse 1)

I lost my house and my car,
My balloons and my dog.
They only took it too far,
And now I'm sitting at the Bar.

It's creepin' and it's hard
And my heart if full of scars.
I've been loyal since the start,
Sufferin' 'cause I'm smart.

(Bridge)
Why have you forsaken me Jesus?

Jesus where shall I go?

(Chorus - 2X)

Jesus said:

Get up, get up, get up; young brother, now.

Get up, get up, get up; young sister.

If you're fed up, fed up, fed up,

Then you're gonna be lit up, lit up, lit up.

(Verse 2)

I'm survivin' on welfare,
Other TIs are judging.
My friend of Facebook,
Told me to stop commenting.

The economy and healthcare.
Deuteronomy and self care.
Tell me what is really out there?
Why am I always in a Snap Mare?

(Bridge)

(Chorus 4X)

(Buildup)

If you want the Camaro,
And the cash in your hand.
Don't cry like a baby,
Come up with a plan.

Jesus said: hold out your hand.
Since the day this all began.
If you don't have hope,
Then you're building on sand.

In this great vast land,
There's a way out if you need it.
Not a form to be scanned,
But a steed if you lead it.

Jesus said you should heed it.
If you patient, you can speed it.
Don't ever blame god,
Because then you'll be defeated.

Don't eve blame god,
Even if you're an Atheist.

(Bridge)

(Chorus - X4)

Targeted Individual Anthem # 1

Freedom Is My Compulsion
by John Jenkins

(Verse 1)

I woke up this morning,
With a heart full of sane.
I've just got my portion,
And I'm walking again.

Nobody said it would be this hard,
But I'm loving the game.
I've lived my life so far,
And I'll never complain.

(Bridge 1)

If you don't give up,

Nobody can take you away.

If you don't give up,

Just get up and enjoy today.

(Chorus 1 - X2)

Freedom is my compulsion.
I give it all my devotion.
Life has never been better.
A positive explosion.

(Verse 2)

So I caught me a movie,
And I read me a book.
Evil goes right through me,
And I'm getting loving looks.

Said goodbye to my background,
And the things of this world.
My love is all that I need now,
And I'll never be hurled.

(Bridge 2)

If you don't give up,

You'll see the way through your confusion.

If you don't give up,

You'll make success a foregone conclusion.

(Chorus 2 - 2X)

Freedom is my compulsion.
An automatic explosion.
I never wanted to fight it.
But now it shows my devotion.

(Bridge 3)

If you don't get up,

You'll never see the sun again.

If you don't get up,

You'll never be loved again.

(Bridge 4)

If you don't get up,

You'll never see why this all happened.

If you don't get up,

You'll never see the people's reaction.

(Chorus 3)

It's a freedom explosion.
I fight the evil extortion.
I never wanted to be there.
And what are they in control of?

(Chorus 4)

Freedom is my devotion.
A love and kindness explosion
I didn't want to ignite it.
A triumphant emotion.

Emotion.

My New Life

I can't force myself to do anything. I just want to watch success videos and contemplate success, but I don't want to do any actual WORK. I need this. For real, please. What's wrong with me?

No Turning Back

In 2008 I was convicted of a crime. In fact, I pled guilty at arraignment. That was it. No way out. Condemned for life. Everything's over. Don't worry, John. You don't need to worry. It's over. Just relax and enjoy the rest of your stay...

Free Julian Assange

Julian Assange is still "incarcerated"? A slave in his own home. We finna go break him out! Hold my beer!

The Thing I Have To Do

I need to keep moving forward. Whatever it takes. More than a year to the 2020 election. Whatever happened to early voting? I have rights!

Money For Me

Maybe I'll be poor forever. That's a possibility. It doesn't have to happen that way, but perhaps it will. I need to keep going forward. I will not end up like my father, if that's any consolation. Nothing in my life was like my father. Nothing. I never did (those things) that he did. I made it further than him. I'll never be accepted again, but I can move forward.

I Can't Belive...

I can't believe that I lived to see this. The first Fed mayor in Chicago. The first Cubs pennant in over a hundred years. The first time I had my own apartment. My first Jury Duty. The first ten years without my family. The first time I ever went viral. The first time I spent every dime in my checking account. Things are getting betta. You'll never know until you try.

My Days In 2020

This is what I'm going to do. I'm going to wait for 2020. I'm going to make sure I'm all "registered up" for the election. Then I'm going to "connect the dots" whilst I "connect the arrow." This has been a roller coaster ride so far. Trump has brought us across the threshold (pun intended). Whatever it takes for me to win, I will. Incidentally, my favorite candidates have won 4 out of the last 5 elections. The only one who lost was Bruce Rauner (but really, that doesn't count because Illinois is the one that really lost).

No Way Out!

What do I think about my future? I've already done more than I will ever have to do to succeed. I have done more for myself. I could end my life right now a happy man. I really want to get to these 200 blog posts this year. I already have three out of five of the year's goals accomplished, so that won't be a problem.

Hidin', Providin' Biden.

It turns out that Biden might not be "eligible" (enough) to run for president in 2020. It appears that the same program that the Democratic party created to prevent Trump from winning in 2016 is now preventing everyone but Trump from winning in 2020. Am I body shaming? Guilt shaming? Party shaming? Hardly. I just think it's strange how justice can often prevail instead.

Lesson For Life

I used to love Changes by Tupac. It was a great song. It wasn't until a few years ago that I discovered the real wealth that this captain of rap had to offer. This dude wrote, recorded and then didn't release, more hit songs than the entire "best of" albums of some artists. And that's not even limited to just rap artists.

People Get Ready

I got to meet my idol yesterday. It was oh-so-intimidating. Not really. He was just a normal person with a LOT of drive. Very helpful indeed.

Nas or Tupac?

Should it be Nas or Tupac, or should it be Tupac or The Outlaws? Yes, it is true that Nas was better at life, and surviving. But as far as being a rapper is concerned, Tupac made more hit songs by the end of 1996 than Nas's whole career! And I am a Nas fan. I'm just saying I'm also a Tupac fan.

Wonder who will be the next Tupac. Slim Shady was more of a shock jock than a rapper. P. Diddy has the worst flow of any rapper in history. The list goes on. Rap and conservative values go hand-in-hand.

No Need For Views

It seems that I have bypassed the entire capitalist system altogether. We've already had a spate of billion-dollar companies without profits (Youtube, Facebook, Twitter, Snapchat, Instagram). Now we will have billion-dollar companies without ANYTHING! It seems silly, but pretty soon, we won't have to trick anybody. We will simply build intrinsic value and go from there.

Zero Views For Weeks

I'm not complaining. The truth is that I just really wanted to go out and get some blog posts up this year. I was tired of being sick and tired of not putting myself out there, of only thinking it was worth it if I got 2000 views out of the gate. But now I think differently. I want things to work better. I want things to be fun and interesting. But I have to do the work. A post that is never written is guaranteed to get zero views.

My Idea Of Preparedness

Some people believe that the only way to prepare for a "crisis" is to "go to the range" and practice shooting. Look, Americans are the most well-armed populace in the world, and the government is still going nuts. People are being taxed to death, the government is intruding on everybody's rights. What I'm saying is that simply having a gun and knowing how to shoot is not going to stop the government from, for instance, tricking your child into going into debt for a piece of paper and then garnishing that child's (or your) wages for fifty years to pay back what you "owe".

As bold and courageous as conservatives think they are, the government is just that more cunning. They've even got us using their words, as if we actually believe in all of these witch hunts. That's why I firmly believe that Trump, while not being the perfect choice, is a step in the right direction. Reagan was a Hollywood actor, a leading man in Hollywood no less. He never should've been the great boon to success and personal responsibility that he was. Judging by Hollywood's standards, he should've been another Harvey Weinstein or Bill Cosby. Trump, in fact, has already surpassed Reagan's accomplishments.

My idea of preparing for the inevitable is by reading books. Opening your mind up to knowledge, not just flimsy magazine articles or political "journalism," is what is going to move the needle. Know yourself. Know your mind. If you had a gun, you might be more likely to kill yourself with it than an "intruder."

A Panacea Of Preparedness

I keep hearing about how this is "the big one" and how we should all be "stockpiling," but it may not be so simple. How will we even know what we will need? There are so many different options. Should we focus on tech, self defense, food, sanitation, chemical? These are such vast aspects that one can hardly secure them all. What I would say is that humans will survive this. We survived everything else.

Oh Whatever Shall We Do?

What shall we do, those of us who are stuck, depressed, impressed upon? Wrecked, derelicked? What shall we do, those who have never discovered their true wealth, their optimism? Who have never discovered that theirs is a path that cannot be discounted, a world without shame, without pain, without discomfort. What shall be done for the ones who...can't remember their last good day? Their best seems so far long ago. But they, I, are still blessed.

We just need to eat a few more cans of Campbell's Chunky before we get the monkey off our backs.

Is America Really Done For?

It's always hilarious when I hear a certain liberal talk about how America is "done for." The proof that they display is dubious at best. They say that Americans are "losing jobs at a terrific rate, and the suicides!" Well, certain populations have never had the jobs, and they're not killing themselves. They didn't even kill themselves when the dogs and hoses were called in.

Is America Done For?

I was watching a video about Chris Hedges on Youtube yesterday. He's another liberal who claims that liberals are destroying the country whilst at the same time promoting liberal policies, chiefly unions. The problem is, if everybody is on the job because the union is keeping them there, who's doing the work? Who's producing the product? Also, what are minorities (legal minorities) and women going to do if we go all-union? Where will they work? Certainly not for the union.

Trump: Why Can't I Pick A Side?

Was it really a mistake to vote for Trump? Should I have voted for Kasich? Would my vote have made a difference either way? Every election win starts with one vote. I don't know. It's just that all of these tirades are a moot point. China is financing our lifestyle. There's more to being a Republican than whining like a liberal about all of the "unfair trade deals" that result in our junk bonds being bought up every year.

Although, there is something about Trump that appealed to me, and still does. There is something about him that makes me feel as though I could make it too, if I do the work. I want to work. That's what I want to do.

Our current lifestyle of endless debt and stifling creativity and responsibility whilst putting out more crap is unsustainable from a conservation standpoint. But the good thing is that I'm just a little bit less dogmatic than I was in 2012. I may even be a swing voter. Imagine that.

The New Life

Life ends if you don't stoke the flames. So make a big flame. And don't forget. Your life will get better, bet on that. Have a nice day.

For No One

I'm pretty sure that no one will ever read this, but success is the most difficult formula to discover in life. It's like an almost unbreakable code. The human brain has trillions of synapses, the world's most advanced computer. But even humans can't figure it out most of the time. If one were to figure out a way to make success 100% impossible, that would be an unbreakable code. A perfect cipher. Imagine hunting for cryptocurrencies using the world's most unbreakable cipher.

I Think I May Be In Trouble

It seems that all of my previous views were coming from Google+. So now that Google+ has closed, I'm irrelevant. I'm okay with that. The truth is that I abandoned my blogs for years, plus my potential viewers. It's only right that I should get abandoned in turn. You know, I don't think I really want to be successful. I think it's due to my religious upbringing. I guess that I assume that the way things are now is the way that God wanted them to be. I know I'm supposed to be an atheist, but I think that I'm still solidly religious in the deepest parts of me.

What Does It All Mean?

What is the meaning of life? I either understand it instinctively or I understand that it's not important at all. For me, the purpose of life is to go from being a failure to being a success, or to go from being a "zero" to being "the one." This is what I'm trying to do every day. So, when you see me on the internet, I'm either blogging or watching educational material. Gotta love that educational material.

This Week In Tech

In tech news today, Google announces that it will be eliminating Google + from it's web services platform. They claim, to paraphrase, that the low number of adopters (ahem) make it pointless to keep maintaining Google +. I should've known something was wrong when my Google + page had 3 million views and I didn't even do anything.

Facebook just appears to be buoyant and powerful in it's approach. No matter how much bad press the company receives, the company performs. It was unwise for Google to simply assume that it could do anything, but I can't blame them for trying. We need more people trying to build wealth around here (ahem). 

The First Thing

The first thing I would say to anybody thinking of starting a business is that success doesn't come overnight. When we look around, it seems like everyone just walked up to the success store and "filled up their tank," but that's not the case.

And it gets even more into the nitty-gritty details if you look at the way our society really works. I agree with Brendon Burchard, in that the most important aspect is your own curiosity. Your ability to look beyond the obvious and into the unknown is what will make or break your existence in this planar realm (A little LOTR parlance?).

Just think of it this way. When we went to school, we were force to learn our nouns, verbs and consonants and vowels on punishment of spanking and toy buybacks. But today, the only thing we will ever learn is what we genuinely want to know. Don't assume that "anybody" would want to become successful.

Well, everyone wants to become successful, but their definition of success is probably every-so-slightly different to your own. So there's that.

Also, remember that no matter what they say about you, you're okay in my book.

JohnJenkins2315@yahoo.com

The End

At the end of my life, I want to be able to say that I finally figured it out. I want to be able to say that I finally figured out how to reach my potential, how to truly succeed. Something is holding me back, something must be changed. I need to figure out how to make it work.

What is it that I'm missing? What is it that I need to do? What is it that is going to make the difference in my life and in my work? What will make me come alive? What will make me feel as if I had lived the best life possible under the circumstances.

I can almost see it. It's just at the edge of my vision, but it's becoming clearer. The clarity of life is in the feeling of being at total oneness with the world, and in feeling that you are in complete control. Something has to be done. Someone must change.

And that someone is ME>

How Are We Going To Win?

How Long
Has It Been?
What's Left
To Defend?

Where Have
You Been
Since The
End?

I Remember
When
I Came Up
Then

Since Then

It Has
Only Been

Where Is
Your Inn,

My Friend?

Shall We Raise
The Din
Or Fall Out Of
The Bin

In The Skin
That We're In
And Be Told
That We'll Win?

In The End,
It Depends.

Every Day

Every day I wake up and I just want to do the routine. The routine is what got me here. I was so frustrated, confused and demoralized late last year, when my building was condemned and I was forced to move. But the routine stuck with me that whole time. I was read, prepared to make the necessary adjustments. Nothing was stopping me at that point. I made myself into the man I am now. So much has changed in just two months!

The Reality

The great thing about living today is that life is so incredibly easy. All you have to do is go to the library every day and read (and browse the internet).

My Future

I want to create the greatest life that I possibly can. I want to do the things that I know will truly make me fierce, unstoppable. I know what I have to do. I have to try. I have to work on myself and take action.

When was the most successful time in my life? I think 2017. That was the year that I wrote my first novel. It was not the hardest thing that I ever had to do, but it was certainly the longest thing that I ever wrote.

Who am I kidding?

College was my height, and always will be. I learned so many frigging skills in such a short amount of time. I was doing physics animations in 3D Studio Max, I was editing video and making sound effects. I was drawing. It feels like that was my height, but objectively it probably wasn't. I think that objectively, right now would be my height. For many reasons, I have reached unprecedented levels in my life.

Actually, I think that I can safely say that College was nowhere near my peak. I was confused and just wanted to be a "good boy". Now I can be what I want to be.

Who To Vote For?

Ultimately, I made a judgment call when voting for Trump. It was a decision that I was glad to make. At the time, nothing else seemed like a possibility. Trump just has a way of making himself last in your mind. It's amazing, really. The thing that I wish I knew was that a lot of the complaining that Republicans do is really fake.

Republicans spend a lot more time funding liberal causes than fighting them. Ultimately, it would take a different national outlook - or a different reality - for me to achieve that which I have set out to achieve. Something has to give, and I'm willing to make myself work hard to achieve that which I have set out to do.

First, I would say, when voting, follow your own principles. If you don't like whining, don't accept whining. If you vote for the whiner, that says more about you than them. Whining never helped anybody. It's work that makes life better.

Second, do some independent research. A lot of the time, whining only works on people who don't know the truth. If you know the truth about America/China relations, or America/World relations, you'll know well enough to see through the whining.

Why am I whining about whining? Well, I'm whining about whining to whine about whiners who drink wine and whine the whine of the times...

Am I A Zealot?

It could very well be that I'm a zealot, that I'm making my choices based on emotion, not logic. But it's not likely. The most reliable belief system that I have learned in life is that those who tell you that you are not responsible for your own actions are your real enemy. The person who claims that racism is the reason why a black child can't read or can't stay out of juvenile hall as that child's mortal enemy.

The person who says that will do a complete 180 when it comes to their own kids. Only the best schools. Only the best tutors. Only the best nutrition for their own families. Only the best real estate. The actual point is that blacks were around 100,000 years before the first white person was born. There was no "free lunch." There were no food stamps or Link cards or SSI checks. We've already proved that we can do it.

It will happen for us one way or the other. We will find out what it's like to survive and thrive as successful people.

And when we do, watch out!

The Truth

Everything that has ever happened to me in my life has been my fault. It's true.

Global Economic Collapse

What would I do tomorrow if the entire world economy shut down. Before you call me a crackpot, let me say that there are a lot of shady things going on financially in this country, and in the world at large.

Without going into too much detail, we're in trouble. And we know we're in trouble. We don't have the resources that we say that we do, and the ones we do have are running out. Yes, I am a conservative (in the literal sense) so I wish to conserve.

But what would I do? I've been reading up on it, and I think the best thing to do would be to stay near a source of water. You know what they say about the Great Lakes. It looks like horse shit, but it's clean. The next step would be to get in shape. The bus and rail system may be ending soon, and it's going to be a long walk to downtown, or anywhere else.

We can survive, but we must be able to create an environment of prosperity. I'll keep going on this thread in the future.

Yours Sincerely,
JohnJenkins2315@yahoo.com

Section 8 Woes

What else can I do? The new is that Trump sent an executive order to Carson to raise the rents on Section 8. Everyone's doing a high-five on this one. To me, it just another example of Trump's brilliance. I don't like executive orders, but if we need to have them, this is the best one for me. 

Even as a poor person myself, I can see the advantage here. If I cannot come up with a way to not only survive, but thrive, then I shouldn't be alive. The thing that separates us from the animals is that we can evolve and adapt. If we cease to do so, by decree of government, then we cease to be human. 

Ironically, most of the people who laud welfare will never experience themselves. Your children get a check. Your children get food stamps. Your children live paycheck to paycheck.  My children get the executive suite. 

My Most Embarrassing Moment

My Most Embarrassing Moment

Back in 2016, I was in a bind. I had been poor my entire life, every single day, and I wanted out. I wanted out so badly that I was willing to do anything. At the time I had just finished a book on programming by Steve Heller. It was a C++ book.

Suddenly I got an idea in mind. I saw all of these people making big money on Kickstarter. I wanted to be one of them. Some of these companies made billions, billions. I wanted to win like that. But I didn't know how.

I had this idea from reading the C++ book, and without researching its efficacy I hastily created a plan to build my first Kickstarter. If my past was any indication, the Kickstarter would simply be ignored and I'd stay poor.

But something happened that I would never forget. Over 7,000 people viewed the Kickstarter in a little over a week. At that point I realized that I was totally unprepared for success. Many people emailed me who completely understood my thought process and what I was trying to do. But for the most part I was lambasted.

And deservedly so. The thing that stood out most to me was the fact that if I had done the slightest bit of research on my idea, I would have realized that my idea was already patented and already existed. It's existed for decades, but I didn't know.

My one chance at fame and I lost it all, before I started. It was because of my thinking. I'll never have that kind of audience again, but I do know that knowing what you're talking about is worth a lot more than fame. In this world, people who know nothing get featured on the big screen, their name in lights, proving that you don't have to know everything to be popular.

But everything that happened to me was my fault. I'm a black man. I know better. And now I will have to pay the price. I will never have that kind of spark again, but I will know what I'm talking about before I speak.

 

JohnJenkins2315@yahoo.com

The Shutdown

The government shutdown may be over. I don't think that I should spent too much time thinking about government shutdown. It seems that ever since George W. Bush, whoever gets into office gets shut down by the opposition.

The truth is that America just owes so much money. Over 160 Trillion dollars. I keep thinking that if I had only one one millionth of that, I would b set. But oh well. I'm really vascillating about voting for Trump. Was it a mistake, or not?

Trump is bold, and he's already done more for me than any other president. But the drawback is that...I don't know:

For one thing, he things really small. It's hard to follow someone who is so focused on the small stuff.

On the other hand, he's always complaining about how unfair life is to him. And that's a loser's mentality. As men, we want to take what is rightfully ours, not be given it.

Kasich Was The Better Pick

I should've chosen Kasich. He was so mild-mannered, so accomplished. I chose Trump because he appeared to be saying what everyone was thinking. Of course, I behaved the opposite way that Trump did, but what did I know? I was a poor, broke loser with non family and no future. Success had to be the opposite of me, right? Well I was wrong. Trump talks a great game, but real life always catches up. The run up in stocks was deceptive at first. It seemed like he had this special "Winner's" DNA that I could not come close to.

But now the country is doing worse than 2008. Trump only added to the deficits. Trump looked like a dark horse, but really he was the establishment candidate. Anybody could've created that platform. Just read a conservative news website for a few months and you've got every element of Trumps platform. And that was part of the appeal, for me. He conformed to my biases, and he was RICH. I wanted to be rich more than anything at the time.

The beginning of Trump's presidency raised the eternal question: Do the ends justify the means? That's a hard question to answer, as a human, and a man. It's hard to answer that question because both are true. The ends absolutely justify the means. The original medicines were found by trying every poisonous, inert, destructive substance until, magically, somebody didn't die. All of this fancy scientific research we have now is just fluff compared to that.

But at the same time, no. The ends never justify the means. Trump will be so busy bailing out his accomplices and taking "deals" that he wont have the time or the energy - or the good will - necessary to push through my agenda. I wanted an end to welfare and affirmative action, but it's not going to happen this way. Success doesn't happen overnight. It happens with hard work and social skills, not a few tweets and a trial.

I'm sorry Kasich. From now on, you're my model for a Republican president.

JohnJenkins2315@yahoo.com