The End

At the end of my life, I want to be able to say that I finally figured it out. I want to be able to say that I finally figured out how to reach my potential, how to truly succeed. Something is holding me back, something must be changed. I need to figure out how to make it work.

What is it that I'm missing? What is it that I need to do? What is it that is going to make the difference in my life and in my work? What will make me come alive? What will make me feel as if I had lived the best life possible under the circumstances.

I can almost see it. It's just at the edge of my vision, but it's becoming clearer. The clarity of life is in the feeling of being at total oneness with the world, and in feeling that you are in complete control. Something has to be done. Someone must change.

And that someone is ME>

How Are We Going To Win?

How Long
Has It Been?
What's Left
To Defend?

Where Have
You Been
Since The
End?

I Remember
When
I Came Up
Then

Since Then

It Has
Only Been

Where Is
Your Inn,

My Friend?

Shall We Raise
The Din
Or Fall Out Of
The Bin

In The Skin
That We're In
And Be Told
That We'll Win?

In The End,
It Depends.

Every Day

Every day I wake up and I just want to do the routine. The routine is what got me here. I was so frustrated, confused and demoralized late last year, when my building was condemned and I was forced to move. But the routine stuck with me that whole time. I was read, prepared to make the necessary adjustments. Nothing was stopping me at that point. I made myself into the man I am now. So much has changed in just two months!

The Reality

The great thing about living today is that life is so incredibly easy. All you have to do is go to the library every day and read (and browse the internet).

My Future

I want to create the greatest life that I possibly can. I want to do the things that I know will truly make me fierce, unstoppable. I know what I have to do. I have to try. I have to work on myself and take action.

When was the most successful time in my life? I think 2017. That was the year that I wrote my first novel. It was not the hardest thing that I ever had to do, but it was certainly the longest thing that I ever wrote.

Who am I kidding?

College was my height, and always will be. I learned so many frigging skills in such a short amount of time. I was doing physics animations in 3D Studio Max, I was editing video and making sound effects. I was drawing. It feels like that was my height, but objectively it probably wasn't. I think that objectively, right now would be my height. For many reasons, I have reached unprecedented levels in my life.

Actually, I think that I can safely say that College was nowhere near my peak. I was confused and just wanted to be a "good boy". Now I can be what I want to be.

Who To Vote For?

Ultimately, I made a judgment call when voting for Trump. It was a decision that I was glad to make. At the time, nothing else seemed like a possibility. Trump just has a way of making himself last in your mind. It's amazing, really. The thing that I wish I knew was that a lot of the complaining that Republicans do is really fake.

Republicans spend a lot more time funding liberal causes than fighting them. Ultimately, it would take a different national outlook - or a different reality - for me to achieve that which I have set out to achieve. Something has to give, and I'm willing to make myself work hard to achieve that which I have set out to do.

First, I would say, when voting, follow your own principles. If you don't like whining, don't accept whining. If you vote for the whiner, that says more about you than them. Whining never helped anybody. It's work that makes life better.

Second, do some independent research. A lot of the time, whining only works on people who don't know the truth. If you know the truth about America/China relations, or America/World relations, you'll know well enough to see through the whining.

Why am I whining about whining? Well, I'm whining about whining to whine about whiners who drink wine and whine the whine of the times...

Am I A Zealot?

It could very well be that I'm a zealot, that I'm making my choices based on emotion, not logic. But it's not likely. The most reliable belief system that I have learned in life is that those who tell you that you are not responsible for your own actions are your real enemy. The person who claims that racism is the reason why a black child can't read or can't stay out of juvenile hall as that child's mortal enemy.

The person who says that will do a complete 180 when it comes to their own kids. Only the best schools. Only the best tutors. Only the best nutrition for their own families. Only the best real estate. The actual point is that blacks were around 100,000 years before the first white person was born. There was no "free lunch." There were no food stamps or Link cards or SSI checks. We've already proved that we can do it.

It will happen for us one way or the other. We will find out what it's like to survive and thrive as successful people.

And when we do, watch out!